"You cannot find peace by avoiding life"
- Virgina Woolf
- Virgina Woolf
. Her suicide followed a note she left for her husband which stated:
"I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been. V."
I was glad to see that you'd posted and then, upon reading it, scared for you. I don't know you, but you remind me of someone I love very much. Depression is a bitch and a half. I know it's hard to fight it. But I know there are people who care. I'm one of them. Maybe you're a surrogate for him, a stand-in, because I can't say these things to him. But I CAN say them to you. Hang in there. Please.
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